Update 11/20/2012 By Michelle

The question is how do I balance the brick wall of realism with the hurdles of hope? Brick walls are much harder to get over. Hurdles seem to be endless at this stage. It seems easier to get over them. Moving on to the next brings hope that the hurdles will get smaller each time. As we are educating ourselves on how to care for my mom, the realism is setting in. What if this really is it? What if she really will never move again on her own? We are beginning to look at lifts for her house so we can safely move her from her bed to her chair. Right now it takes three people to get her moved. She is exhausted after such a task. How will we ever have three people available to move her? This is only one of the long list of things that must get done each day. I know these tasks will get easier with time, but her care is a fulltime job for two to three people. On the other hand, she shows us glimpses of what she can do. We have seen so many miracles already, why would Heavenly Father stop now? My Uncle Art said "The difficult takes time, the impossible takes a little longer." This is for sure an impossible case. Every step she has already taken has been an impossible one. Maybe the answer is we just need to wait a little longer. Today was an average day for my mom. She had her up moments and her down moments. She is exhausted tonight and will hopefully sleep so we can sleep. I will give you a glimpse of what her day is like another time.